Solitariness.

I am alone. I am sitting here as a single, solitary, living by myself, independent woman and it agrees with me very well. I am the mistress of my domain and putter around in it with a purpose and make all things my own by touching and clearing up and rearranging. I feel a great [...]

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Lisa Sarsfield Images.

I get up and go to sleep again and I repeat this process several times a night. When I am up, I drink a cup of decaf, so I am not artificially awakened. Even now, at 6:30 am, I feel that I could sleep some more and after I walk Jesker, I just may climb [...]

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Picasso 2 Images number 4.

Yesterday morning I got my wish fulfilled and didn’t wake up until 6:30 am, which meant that I slept more than eight hours! It also meant that I didn’t have time to write this blog, so I skipped yesterday all together instead of trying to squeeze in a post. I am such a creature of [...]

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Blue Flower Images number 1

Because we had to turn back the clock one hour, yesterday seemed like it took forever. The day just lasted and lasted. Every time I looked at the clock, it was earlier than I thought it was going to be, causing me to feel very exasperated. When it was finally time to go to bed, [...]

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Appel 1 Images number 2.

Today, I weigh 91.9 kilos and that is 1.6 kilos too many. Actually, it is 6.9 kilos too many, but who is counting? Well, I am obviously. I can tell it is almost wintertime, because I am eating more than is good for me. I am eating more often. I get the urge to [...]

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Second Birthday Cake Images number 3.

I am reading A Short History of Tractors In The Ukraine. Eduard had gotten it from the library and I am reading it in Dutch. This doesn’t bother me, although it was written in English originally, because the translation is very good. When I saw him reading the book, I recognized the title as one [...]

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Birthday Cake Images number 3.

I almost got up too early during the night. I woke up at 2:15 and thought I was done sleeping, but then realized on time that I wasn’t and went back to bed where I slept until 5 am. Eduard and I went to bed early last night, therefor I was a little confused at [...]

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Monet 2 Images number 5.

Well, what a nice way to start this Sunday morning. The Rotten Correspondent has seen fit to give me the You Make Me Smile Award, which makes me wonder if she has read all of my posts lately? Nevertheless, there must have been something endearing about them and I very gladly accept the award, of [...]

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Appel 1 Images number 3 and Love.

Well, yesterday turned into kind of an odd day. I found out that Eduard is in love with someone else and when I found out, I told him he had to make a choice, either she or me. I gave him some time to think about it and he decided to choose me, which is [...]

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Van Gogh 5 Images number 5 and Rapid Cycling.

Last night, I fell asleep on the sofa and slept for about two hours. When I woke up, I was filled with self loathing. I felt a hatred toward myself that was so strong that I wanted to self destruct. I said to Eduard, “I really, really hate myself right now and if there was [...]

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