Avalanche.

I think it is a minor miracle that I sleep the sleep of the innocents and don’t have nightmares about an avalanche of bills coming out of the mailbox when I open it and then realize the awful shortage of money I have and the inability to pay them and the way I rob Peter [...]

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In my dreams.

I grieve in my dreams. I wake up and I know that I’ve spent the night dreaming about the situation I am in, but that I have been crying about it and that in my dreams everything is quite sad and traumatic and not at all the way it is during the day when [...]

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Thoroughly Thursday.

I don’t know why I am calling this post that, except for the reasons that it looks good and it sounds as if I will very consciously live through the day properly. I will do it thoroughly, no messing about.
Well, here I am full of wit and I haven’t even finished my first mug of [...]

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Whitsun Monday

In the Netherlands, religious holidays are always celebrated on Sunday and Monday, so today is also an official holiday and Eduard has the day off and all the stores and everything are closed. I should say that a religious holiday is celebrated for two days, so we have first and second Easter Day and first [...]

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Funky Unfrazzled Friday.

Graffiti number 2
Thursday, 6 PM. When I went back to bed early this morning I had a special, but disturbing dream. I dreamed that an enormous nuclear bomb came down to the earth and hit a spot in the United States right where my son was standing looking up in the sky with his mouth [...]

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Multifaceted Monday

Green Leaf
Very early Monday morning. I woke up, “walked” into the living room, turned on the computer and then sat there like a zombie with my eyes half closed and drool coming out of my mouth. I realized I needed to sleep some more and stumbled over to the sofa, that is literally the word [...]

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Wobbly and waggly Wednesday.

It’s Tuesday afternoon two PM. I have about 30 minutes before I am off to bed with my extra pill and a glass of hot milk for my therapeutic rapid cycling prevention nap. I saw my SPN this morning and we decided that this is the best thing to do for now, and to not [...]

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Bowl with Junk and Graffiti.

Bowl with Junk:
Graffiti:
I am not sitting here in my regal red bathrobe, but in my clothes, as that is what I was wearing when I fell asleep on the sofa last night. I hadn’t planned to fall asleep there, it sort of overtook me by surprise and before I knew it, I was gone from [...]

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Picasso Images number 3

I fell asleep on the sofa after dinner yesterday and woke up at 8:30 pm. I stumbled off to bed and slept until 5:30 this morning, so I guess I slept enough. I warded off a shift downward in my mood in the late afternoon, by taking an oxazepam and that took care of the [...]

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Appel 1 Images number 7 and Dreams

The morning has already been enjoyable, when it has hardly started yet. I have visited some other blogs and read comments and left some too. Some imbecile left strange comments on my last post, which I deleted, all of them. Watch, now I will be deluged with more strange comments. I wonder if I need [...]

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