Saturated.

There comes a time, when you have read so many blogs that you are saturated with them and that you can not leave another sensible comment. Then it is time to quit and save the rest of them for another day ,says I, who is not a quitter and who goes on until the bitter [...]

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What the hell?

Because I had to live on a teeny little welfare check for two months, that was not even enough to buy groceries with, Eduard supported me financially the best way he could by also borrowing money and making ends meet. Because of this, Social Services sees this money as income and is therefor not [...]

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Lazy Sunday.

I am just puttering around and Jesker follows me wherever I go and helps me putter. Well, actually he doesn’t do much, but look on with a great deal of interest and a wagging tail, but I suppose that is his way of helping. I sit down and contemplate my surroundings and then think of [...]

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Mother Nature…

Mother Nature proved her point that I can sleep without sleeping pills by letting me sleep until just one minute before the alarm clock went off at 7 Am this morning. How is that for perfect planning? This Goddess is a genius. Then I walked around with the alarm clock in my left hand, [...]

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Solitariness.

I am alone. I am sitting here as a single, solitary, living by myself, independent woman and it agrees with me very well. I am the mistress of my domain and putter around in it with a purpose and make all things my own by touching and clearing up and rearranging. I feel a great [...]

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In my dreams.

I grieve in my dreams. I wake up and I know that I’ve spent the night dreaming about the situation I am in, but that I have been crying about it and that in my dreams everything is quite sad and traumatic and not at all the way it is during the day when [...]

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Photographs

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Who the hell was Irene?

I went to bed at 2 AM last night, without having taken any sort of nap at all. I just kept staying up doing a myriad of blog related activities, which are doubly intensive now, because I also do my activities in Dutch and have to find and read and leave comments on Dutch language [...]

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And Secondly!

I have found the desk chair to be the most comfortable place to sit. I have tried the sofa and the bed, but this chair is definitely the best, because it offers the most support. So I can write the second post for today without too much pain. I find that the pain medication helps, [...]

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Discussions.

Thursday afternoon. Eduard has asked me not to discuss anything personal about him on my blog and he is right, of course. In my eagerness to tell my story, I do forget boundaries and I cross them and talk about other people’s personal issues and I should not. So, I am going to make it [...]

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