Huh?

What’s wrong with me? Don’t I have anything better to do than to sit here and write silly little posts for this silly little blog? I don’t know, you sit at the dining table, just minding your own business, watching the traffic go by and suddenly the urge strikes you to go post a little [...]

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Just about!

I think I’ve got just about every document I need for my meeting with the man from social services tomorrow after noon, If i don’t have it, it is not for lack of trying. I have been running ragged collecting them all and making copies of them and just as I was doing that at [...]

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Bless me!

Well, bless my little heart! I have been sitting here all afternoon trying to figure out a problem I had with my Dutch blog which did not recognize me as its administrator and so refused to perform all sorts of functions I asked it to. It basically just ignored me and even with the help [...]

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Funky Unfrazzled Friday.

Graffiti number 2
Thursday, 6 PM. When I went back to bed early this morning I had a special, but disturbing dream. I dreamed that an enormous nuclear bomb came down to the earth and hit a spot in the United States right where my son was standing looking up in the sky with his mouth [...]

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Terrifically Tumultuous Tuesday.

Monday afternoon 4:15 PM. Eduard and I were brainstorming this afternoon about how to prevent another ultradian rapid cycle and of course our minds quickly turned to the sign that Eduard had made for me last year. The one that said, “Take a pill and go to sleep!” It was not just for fun that [...]

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Unfinished Hofleverancier.

It is so gosh darn early in the night that I can’t for the life of me call it the wee hours of the morning yet, try as I may, it’s just not going to work. Over in the Sates, people are still living up a storm and aren’t anywhere near going to bed and [...]

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On love.

There comes a time, when I have been up for a while in the wee hours of the morning, that I start to feel that it is time to take my medication. I start to feel weary and sad and a fist starts to squeeze around my heart and takes my breath away. I know [...]

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Wonderful Wednesday?

The possibility exists that in the foreseeable future I will be a divorced woman. When I first realized this, I was very devastated and I thought it was the absolute worst thing that had ever happened to me. Worse than the murder of my mother and worse than the death of my son, but now [...]

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Love.

Love means that from this day forward, I don’t cast huge long and dark doubts like sharp shadows on what my husband tells me. I don’t suspect every word and every deed as being something else than what it really is, a perfect reflection of itself and not a some twisted and altered version that [...]

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Grief and more.

Let me add an explanation to this photograph and not have it stand so dramatically by itself.
I have come to find out that my husband’s involvement with the other woman is of a much longer duration and deeper intensity than I originally thought and I am quite devastated by this knowledge.
I am trying to keep [...]

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