Breakfast Cake.

I was greedy and ate 3 slices of breakfast cake and now I positively feel sick to my stomach and I am sitting here feeling awfully bad. Breakfast cake is very dense and filling and it is customary to put butter on it, so I’ve had quite a meal. I feel it slowly making its [...]

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Discovery.

By chance I rediscovered an old lover whom I had had a brief affair with when my kids were little and when i was desperately looking for a way out of my marriage with my then husband. I had no idea how to go about it with two little kids and was looking for a [...]

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Memories.

In writing down my memories, i hope you realize that i don’t write down everything. There are all sorts of events missing. Events involving me and the kids and my ex husband and my parents. I’ve decided not to write about everything, because it would tear open old wounds and be very painful, so mostly [...]

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450 Miles.

Climbing up the corporate ladder, we moved 450 miles to the north, close to the city of San Francisco. Because of the housing prices, we bought a small house with a little garden. We were surrounded by bigger and better houses, where bigger and better people lived. At least, that was the unspoken message I [...]

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In Between.

I can’t write about my memories all the time. My head will get stuck in them and sometimes that is not a pleasant feeling, depending on the memories. Instead, I will write about what is going on right now.
I had told you all very proudly that I had stopped taking the Temazepam during the day. [...]

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Suburbia.

We moved to suburbia and became regular middle class  American citizens with a cat and a dog and 2.4 children.  The .4 children was in my mind and a figment of my imagination, the third child I never had.
We had a nice house on a nice street. The elementary school was at the end of [...]

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Hollerin’ and yellin’.

One time, when we were staying with my ex in laws in the desert, the kids and I walked away from the house to the foot of the mountain, to an area that was strewn about with rocks and boulders and I put my foot on a small boulder, cowboy style, as if I was [...]

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Thunder and lightning.

As I write this, it is thundering and lightning again and I hope to God that the electricity doesn’t go out.  I do have a flashlight and candles and come to think of it, maybe it wouldn’t really be such an awful thing, if not a little spooky, but I do have the Uberhund to [...]

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Thunder.

The Uberhund is very upset because it is thundering and lightening and he doesn’t know what it means. He is barking at it something fiercely, because it is right above our heads and going very strong. I think he is a little bit scared and a little bit indignant that it won’t go away by [...]

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This one’s for Wednesday.

3:30 PM. Today I had to admit to myself a truth that I had not wanted to admit to, namely that if it looks like a duck and it acts like a duck, it must be a duck. So, if it looks like a depression and it acts like a depression, it must be a [...]

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